They buried his body, but his soul survived.

I think that if me and Luke don't get 'sexual' soon, my head is going to fall off. I'm not even joking!

Or, maybe, it's going nowhere. Maybe I'm starting to get a little bit bored with the situation. Maybe I don't want to kiss him because he feels like too much of a friend.

Oh, fucking FUCK. I need to sort this out in my head before doing anything else.

Suddenly, everything has changed.

I'm tired. I'm full of cold. NOT PRETTY. >:/

I'm going to retire à ma chambre maintenant. =D

xxxxx.

I drove all night to get to you - is that alright?

I feel really rough =( it's gross. School phoned earlier, asking where I was - can I not even be ill in peace!?

Oh, and I want this man, please:

The L-word.

After those 57348979679 photos, I just wanted to do a simple update.

I have a gay cold, and I have to do a History presentation tomorrow. This isn't fair. Might be forced to have the day off, even though I keep doing it. Oops..

P.S. I know I say it a lot, but my boyfriend is fab. Sometimes, I think it isn't going work out, and then he finds my hand when we're walking and I go all funny. Other times, I just have to look at him and my tummy flips over [but in a nice way =P]. Maybe I'm going sentimental in my old age!? ;P

Me <3 

View from our hotel room in Krakow 

Milski! 

Adam! 

Nat + Milski + Davey baby + Rhian 

<3  

Rhian + Alex 

Nat + Milski + Rhian 

Birkenau 5 

Ew, faggerzzzz 

Rhian + me + Nat + Milski <3 

Birkenau 2 - watch tower 

Me and Rhian <3 

Rhian! 

Birkenau 6 

Milski + Sophie shmoking out of our hotel window 

Auschwitz 3 

Auschwitz 2 

Auschwitz 1 

Birkenau 4 

Bit of whoring ;P 

Auschwitz 5 - entrance 

Auschwitz 4 

Birkenau 3 - watch tower from a distance 

Birkenau 1 

Roomies! Lucy + me + Pippa 

Ed + Ed 

Milski + Jen + Nat + Rhian + Lucy = my friends <3<3 

Snow! 

Rhian in the snow! 

Cathedral + Alex's head ;P 

Krakow <3 

Krakow cathedral 

Krakow dragon  

Brandenburg Gate, numero deux 

View from the Hostel room, numero un 

View from the Hostel room, numero deux 

View from teh Reichstag 

Brandenburg Gate, numero deux 

Brandenburg Gate, numero un 

ARROW ICE! 

Rhian and Jen 

Berlin Wall #1 

Topographie des Terrors 

Sophie, Ed, me and Johnny Baby 

The Berlin crew! 

Milski and Davey Baby in the Jewish Memorial 

Drinking crew <3 

Sophie, Ed, me and Jonny [smiling, apparently] 

Lucy, Rhian and Nat 

Sophie on teh coach 

I don't know how to live without your love.

Eurgh, I just remembered how much my family irritate me. Stop drinking and stop smoking! Addictions are pathetic.

Britney Spears <3.>

You drive me crazy.

Berlin and Krakow were both fucking AMAZING. This past week has ruled more than anything else, ever. The teachers let us get well focked =P and the two cities themselves were beautiful. I'm definitely going back to Berlin asap. =D



Auschwitz was really.. numbing? The whole day was slightly scary, to know that 1.3 million people had lived - and died - within a mile of where I was stood. The whole camp was huge: Auschwitz I was slightly smaller, but Birkenau was massive. I even went inside a gas chamber. Oh, and I saw a man stood in one of the rooms, and no one else saw him.. that was a bit strange. =/



Anyway, I'll add more to this update when I have more time. As it is, I have to do loads of work. Eurgh. =(



xxxx.

I don't mind if you forget me.

Last night was possibly the worst night of my life. Really, really not good.. a fucking HUGE thank you to Nath who was bloody amazing and made stuff a little bit better. =) you are too good.

Just for the record, I got really drunk and kissed a friend, first of all. "Not too bad", I hear you say. Well, I guess not, but then I proceeded to SUCK HIM OFF. He said he had a hard-on and, I don't even know why.. I just did it. And then we almost had SEX, for fucks sake.. we only didn't because I suddenly realised what the fuck we were doing. I really hate myself for it. Luke means so much to me; being around him is lovely. But maybe I'm not good enough for him. Maybe he's too perfect for me to ever be good enough.

I have the biggest hangover ever this morning, not being helped by my father pointing out the fact a schoolbus has just crashed in Germany. Good one, dad. NOT. Now I have 3 hours to get everything sorted out, like the rest of my packing and a shower and all that shizzle. Eurgh, I don't like this at all. I just need to get out of the country and it will be okay. Right?

Guilty feelings = fucking awful.

I am Human and I need to be loved, just like everybody else does..

Snake River Conspiracy = amazing.

Period cramps = gay.

Kissing after a really awkward moment = THE BEST. =)

2 DAYS!

Beware, I bear more grudges than lonely high-court judges.

Please, don't be so bloody entusiastic about me! I like it when boys play it cool. Although, you *are* adorable.. harhar. Just give me some space sometimes, love.

xxx.