Voulez-vous coucher avec moi, ce soir?

They buried his body, but his soul survived.

2006-02-22T22:15:00.000Z

I think that if me and Luke don't get 'sexual' soon, my head is going to fall off. I'm not even joking!

Or, maybe, it's going nowhere. Maybe I'm starting to get a little bit bored with the situation. Maybe I don't want to kiss him because he feels like too much of a friend.

Oh, fucking FUCK. I need to sort this out in my head before doing anything else.

Suddenly, everything has changed.

2006-02-22T18:06:00.000Z

I'm tired. I'm full of cold. NOT PRETTY. >:/

I'm going to retire à ma chambre maintenant. =D

xxxxx.

I drove all night to get to you - is that alright?

2006-02-21T11:01:00.000Z

I feel really rough =( it's gross. School phoned earlier, asking where I was - can I not even be ill in peace!?

Oh, and I want this man, please:

The L-word.

2006-02-20T21:51:00.000Z

After those 57348979679 photos, I just wanted to do a simple update.

I have a gay cold, and I have to do a History presentation tomorrow. This isn't fair. Might be forced to have the day off, even though I keep doing it. Oops..

P.S. I know I say it a lot, but my boyfriend is fab. Sometimes, I think it isn't going work out, and then he finds my hand when we're walking and I go all funny. Other times, I just have to look at him and my tummy flips over [but in a nice way =P]. Maybe I'm going sentimental in my old age!? ;P

2006-02-20T16:32:00.000Z

Me <3

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View from our hotel room in Krakow

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Milski!

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Adam!

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Nat + Milski + Davey baby + Rhian

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Rhian + Alex

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Nat + Milski + Rhian

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Birkenau 5

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Ew, faggerzzzz

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Rhian + me + Nat + Milski <3

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Birkenau 2 - watch tower

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Me and Rhian <3

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Rhian!

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Birkenau 6

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Milski + Sophie shmoking out of our hotel window

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Auschwitz 3

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Auschwitz 2

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Auschwitz 1

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Birkenau 4

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Bit of whoring ;P

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Auschwitz 5 - entrance

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Auschwitz 4

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Birkenau 3 - watch tower from a distance

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Birkenau 1

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Roomies! Lucy + me + Pippa

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Ed + Ed

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Milski + Jen + Nat + Rhian + Lucy = my friends <3<3

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Snow!

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Rhian in the snow!

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Cathedral + Alex's head ;P

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Krakow <3

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Krakow cathedral

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Krakow dragon

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Brandenburg Gate, numero deux

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View from the Hostel room, numero un

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View from the Hostel room, numero deux

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View from teh Reichstag

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Brandenburg Gate, numero deux

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Brandenburg Gate, numero un

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ARROW ICE!

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Rhian and Jen

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Berlin Wall #1

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Topographie des Terrors

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Sophie, Ed, me and Johnny Baby

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The Berlin crew!

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Milski and Davey Baby in the Jewish Memorial

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Drinking crew <3

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Sophie, Ed, me and Jonny [smiling, apparently]

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Lucy, Rhian and Nat

2006-02-20T16:03:00.000Z

Sophie on teh coach

I don't know how to live without your love.

2006-02-19T14:56:00.000Z

Eurgh, I just remembered how much my family irritate me. Stop drinking and stop smoking! Addictions are pathetic.

Britney Spears <3.>

You drive me crazy.

2006-02-19T11:49:00.000Z

Berlin and Krakow were both fucking AMAZING. This past week has ruled more than anything else, ever. The teachers let us get well focked =P and the two cities themselves were beautiful. I'm definitely going back to Berlin asap. =D

Auschwitz was really.. numbing? The whole day was slightly scary, to know that 1.3 million people had lived - and died - within a mile of where I was stood. The whole camp was huge: Auschwitz I was slightly smaller, but Birkenau was massive. I even went inside a gas chamber. Oh, and I saw a man stood in one of the rooms, and no one else saw him.. that was a bit strange. =/

Anyway, I'll add more to this update when I have more time. As it is, I have to do loads of work. Eurgh. =(

xxxx.

I don't mind if you forget me.

2006-02-11T08:49:00.000Z

Last night was possibly the worst night of my life. Really, really not good.. a fucking HUGE thank you to Nath who was bloody amazing and made stuff a little bit better. =) you are too good.

Just for the record, I got really drunk and kissed a friend, first of all. "Not too bad", I hear you say. Well, I guess not, but then I proceeded to SUCK HIM OFF. He said he had a hard-on and, I don't even know why.. I just did it. And then we almost had SEX, for fucks sake.. we only didn't because I suddenly realised what the fuck we were doing. I really hate myself for it. Luke means so much to me; being around him is lovely. But maybe I'm not good enough for him. Maybe he's too perfect for me to ever be good enough.

I have the biggest hangover ever this morning, not being helped by my father pointing out the fact a schoolbus has just crashed in Germany. Good one, dad. NOT. Now I have 3 hours to get everything sorted out, like the rest of my packing and a shower and all that shizzle. Eurgh, I don't like this at all. I just need to get out of the country and it will be okay. Right?

Guilty feelings = fucking awful.

I am Human and I need to be loved, just like everybody else does..

2006-02-09T16:09:00.000Z

Snake River Conspiracy = amazing.

Period cramps = gay.

Kissing after a really awkward moment = THE BEST. =)

2 DAYS!

Beware, I bear more grudges than lonely high-court judges.

2006-02-07T22:17:00.000Z

Please, don't be so bloody entusiastic about me! I like it when boys play it cool. Although, you *are* adorable.. harhar. Just give me some space sometimes, love.

xxx.

I'd say, "I wanna blow you away!"

2006-02-06T22:17:00.000Z

Hmm. Possibly, I need to get a grip and stop being such a fag and KISS HIM. But.. I'm just so shy.. >:/.

Berlin in 5 days. =D

How was I supposed to know our love would grow?

2006-02-06T15:59:00.000Z

I have a D of E meeting tonight. =( The one night I really need to get down and do some work, and I have to learn about OS maps! It's a sorry state of affairs.

Apart from that, I'm really good. Berlin/Krakow is in 5 days, and I'm soosoosoosoo excited. I love going out of the country, and visiting such cultural places as Berlin and Krakow makes it even better! =D

Right now, my friends are what keeps my heart beating. They are wunderbar.

xxx.

All that I'll ever suffer.. all that I'll ever be.

2006-02-05T18:02:00.000Z

Jessicka and Twiggy = so sweet. <3.

It's been quite a long weekend! Worked yesterday. and went out with my friends last night. Bit boring, but still lots of fun because my friends are fucking amazing. Walked home with Luke and Nath, then Luke came back to mine for a little whilse. It was joli. =D stuff with him is good.

Anyway, I have homework to be getting on with, and I want to have it all done by 8 o'clock so I can have a bath and wash my hair, and then watch the Virgin Queen and have an early night. =)

xxx.

Je l'aime. <3.

2006-02-01T14:19:00.000Z

No school for me, aujourd'hui. I feel like shit. =(

I have lots to do though, and lots of homework. So, I can't afford to sit around feeling sorry for myself, oh no! xD je faux commencer mes devoirs, tout de suite.

OH, how I wish for soothing rain..

2006-01-31T19:19:00.000Z

Why oh why oh why do Nightwish make me so nostalgic? Why oh why oh why do I have so much homework? I sometimes wish I could go back to two years ago.

I wish someone could tell me how to behave around him. I wish you could buy a book on this that actually gives proper fucking advice! Me + relationships = fucking crap. It's not that I don't try; I'm just really bad at them. =( but I'm working on it. Promise.

"I started something, I forced you to a zone,
And you were clearly never meant to go.
Hair brushed and parted,
Typical me, typical me, typical me!
I started something, and now I'm not too sure.."

For something ordinary, it's so extraordinary..

2006-01-31T13:55:00.000Z

Eurgh. Boys = gay. They're either not keen enough, or far too keen.. or maybe I'm just a fucktard? Possibly?

I have to go back to school now. Oh, the gayness.

Who broke my heart? YOU DID, YOU DID.

2006-01-30T16:20:00.000Z

I've had one of those "what is the point" days today. Eurgh. =( I now intend to have a relazing evening by myself, doing work and watching something funny on TV. Actually, I do believe the classic programme 'Gay Vicars' is on, so I might be forced to watch that. =P

xxx.

She wants him, he wants me. I don't want anybody.

2006-01-29T17:00:00.000Z

New blog. Simple as. I hope everyone likes it <3>